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Pretty please?
I can focus & actually start to 'feel' the deadlines I have creeping up on my at work... but only around, say, 3 in the afternoon.
Before that, I'm just dragging and super-distracted, and 'eh, whatever' on Big!Important!Soon! deadlines! :(
The only thing I can think of is that I haven't been getting 1) enough light on my lightbox or 2) enough good sleep. I sleept REALLY REALLY badly last night.
Couldn't get to sleep ontime cause I was up until 9pm skating/exercising. Then when I did sleep, I had dreams, and they were full of sad & depressed feelings/thoughts/actions, and it was NOT fun & happiness. :( Once my day started I did feel a bit better. Whatever weirdness hit me last night & this morning, it needs to GO AWAY!
Tonight I'm aiming for a wonderful night's sleep that starts on time! Also an evening of fun & light & happiness. The first goal is anybody's guess, and the 2nd is one I'm feeling like I'm going to have to work at. It would be very easy for me tonight to just curl up on the couch and stare off into the darkness.
The weird thing though is that I don't feel sad or depressed. I had a really good weekend, I made progress on things at work (thought I feel guilty for not buckling down on all the various things that need doing), I have fun plans for this week, and a Derby clinic on Saturday.
Before that, I'm just dragging and super-distracted, and 'eh, whatever' on Big!Important!Soon! deadlines! :(
The only thing I can think of is that I haven't been getting 1) enough light on my lightbox or 2) enough good sleep. I sleept REALLY REALLY badly last night.
Couldn't get to sleep ontime cause I was up until 9pm skating/exercising. Then when I did sleep, I had dreams, and they were full of sad & depressed feelings/thoughts/actions, and it was NOT fun & happiness. :( Once my day started I did feel a bit better. Whatever weirdness hit me last night & this morning, it needs to GO AWAY!
Tonight I'm aiming for a wonderful night's sleep that starts on time! Also an evening of fun & light & happiness. The first goal is anybody's guess, and the 2nd is one I'm feeling like I'm going to have to work at. It would be very easy for me tonight to just curl up on the couch and stare off into the darkness.
The weird thing though is that I don't feel sad or depressed. I had a really good weekend, I made progress on things at work (thought I feel guilty for not buckling down on all the various things that need doing), I have fun plans for this week, and a Derby clinic on Saturday.