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Duh!!
I've been feeling on the edge of mopey most of the day... it's been taking a lot of mental effort to keep from sliding down into self-pity mode.
Mostly just my usual thoughts of 'I should be more ambitious, I should want to do/be/achieve more, etc'...
Just now realized why I've been feeling this way all day... I got recruited to help score applications for a senior accounting position in our finance dept.
Reading everyone's resumes and accomplishments makes me feel really low/useless/slacker. Nevermind the fact that most of the applicants are 40-50+ and I'm in my early 30s!
I just need to get through this task as quickly as possible, and then do something tonight at home to treat myself and make me feel better.
ETA: This is where I sing the praises of my medication, as it's keeping me from falling into an actually depressive episode over this! YAAAY! 7 months ago these exact feelings triggered the worst depressive episode I've ever had. I've had other depressive episodes, but they were so mild that I never realized that's what was going on, I thought I was just deeply down in the dumps or had a super-bad case of the winter blues.
Mostly just my usual thoughts of 'I should be more ambitious, I should want to do/be/achieve more, etc'...
Just now realized why I've been feeling this way all day... I got recruited to help score applications for a senior accounting position in our finance dept.
Reading everyone's resumes and accomplishments makes me feel really low/useless/slacker. Nevermind the fact that most of the applicants are 40-50+ and I'm in my early 30s!
I just need to get through this task as quickly as possible, and then do something tonight at home to treat myself and make me feel better.
ETA: This is where I sing the praises of my medication, as it's keeping me from falling into an actually depressive episode over this! YAAAY! 7 months ago these exact feelings triggered the worst depressive episode I've ever had. I've had other depressive episodes, but they were so mild that I never realized that's what was going on, I thought I was just deeply down in the dumps or had a super-bad case of the winter blues.