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rosebee ([personal profile] rosebee) wrote2010-07-06 03:47 pm
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up & down again?

After an amazingly fun & busy week & a half with my sister visiting, and a 3.5-day weekend from work I'm feeling the blues.

I shouldn't be feeling blue though as far as I can tell. Exactly 2 weeks from today I FINALLY get to see Adam Lambert live & in person!!! :D I'm very excited & looking forward to this. :D

Then just over two weeks after that I have a fun sign-language weekend planned.

Two weeks after the ASL weekend I'm taking another 3-day weekend and MrB & I are going camping! :D

Then in September sometime I'm going down to California to visit my grandparents.

I was in a funk last night as I somehow got thinking/obsession/panicking over whether MrB & I will have to move towns in 2 years when he graduates & has to start looking for a job. The job market now kind of sucks, and it was never really good in this town for his industry to begin with.

But, a lot can change in 2 years, and I have NO reason to panic/worry/get-an-anxiety-attack about this. Maybe if I repeat this to myself often enough it'll come true.

I've got New Moon rented, and I don't have to return it to Blockbuster until Saturday. I've decided I like the Twilight movie better than the New Moon movie, and I like Eclipse better than both of them!

I still really love my Cymbalta. I may have down days still... but they aren't as overwhelming & hopeless as they were before the Cymbalta. It's also easier to pull myself up & out of them. Watching Adam Lambert's American Idol performances, or his Unplugged episode, or listening to his music, or rereading any of the 4 twilight books work well to distract my mind and get me back to my happy place.